As the fallacious situation of the dog placed to live with me has been spread out in a way no reasonable human being would do, asocial media attacking, I decided to write down my personal repressed feelings and thoughts.
November 7th 2018 is a day I hope doesn´t happen to anybody, not even to the worst enemy. A veterinarian appointment finding out why the puppy is not moving correctly is ahead. Previous X-rays did not show anything for fact, as the puppy is so young and the bone structure is "puppyish" and physical treatments as massage, treatments by an Osteopath and having the puppy still for 2 months has not had the effects we hoped for, as we wanted to believe it was nothing seriously wrong with the puppy.
Here I sat in the waiting room with my daughter and friend, my friend is the legal owner of this puppy imported from The States. No one knowing what was in front of us in the next hours...
Somehow I have had, deepest down, a feeling that there is something very wrong with this puppy. I was a hunch, nothing you can lay a finger on...a bad feeling...making you sad...
Clinical examination showed moving was even worst than before, and X-rays taken showed the ugly truth...the elbows had severe changes. Changes that bad that surgery could not guarantee a painless life even as a family dog, even though the hopes had been a working dog. The world collapsed in front of my eyes. All kind of emotions bobbled and it was inevitable not to cry out loud.
In this case the most unselfish decision was to let the puppy run to the rainbow bridge. To let her run free not chained or kept in a small space. To let her out of it all, to be painless...but this decision left me totally heart broken...even though there were encouragements from specialists and friends.
Me and my daughter took Rain on her last trip to the institute performing pathological exams on pets. A horror car trip I can ensure. But as we approached the big metal door I felt that the right decision was made, though it did not make my devastation any lighter.
After this it was to patiently wait for the result. It can take up to 3-6 months to get the autopsy result depending on what is investigated. The autopsy confirmed dysplasia and severe fragmentation. All this waiting and as respectable keeping a promise not to revile what has happened was almost too much to handle. But I did...
In respect of people not knowing how to behave I will not write about the fuss and accusations made word wide from the breeders side. But I can ensure it is nothing I could even think about doing to anybody. And I let it stay there...on the ground where it belongs. I do not speak loud out that the breeder had puppies playing with adult dogs, there were stairs in the house that puppies climbed in etc. All of these are circumstantial things that can have impact in the situation too. You never know and therefore best not to speak out. But here in my own blog where I sort out my own feelings and thoughts considering the social media rage built by the breeder and her so called spokesman, a person with no part in this at all, making up stories about killing the puppy with no valid reason, caused with impact injuries etc.
Thoughts...at this point I am numb. Social media rage....WTF? Writing something, leaving out what is inconvenient and using private messages sent to a third part....
I truly have forgotten how mean and self observed breeders can be. I can not anymore define my self as a breeder, though I have a Kennel Name and have had 5 litters. In every litter there has been some kind of problems and I have had no problems dealing with that...on the comprehensive, I have been taking part in the tragedies of the owners and been able to help getting blood samples for a DNA-test for 2 different inherited diseases.
It is now crystal clear...this puppy came from a breeder that is not reliable, especially if any problems accrue. Wanting to hide problems that truly should be told so other breeders can take the occurred problem in to consideration planning future litters. Responsibility.
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